It's bugging me. Like mad, more than ever, how all of you "Twilighters" just hate Jacob Black. It's not even the rabid hardcore hopped-on-board-the-Twilight-train-a-year-ago Twilighters, it's the new, recent self-proclaimed hardcore "Twilighters".

That's why I put "Twilighters" in quotes, because you read the first book in a week, completely fell in love with Edward and his great silver Volvo. Nagged your mother and bought the second book the next week, and completely went depressed because Edward left, and extremely angry that Jacob came in the picture and happy all over again that Edward came back. Nagged your mother again and bought the third book the next week, and outrageously whined because Jacob was brought back into the picture and was somewhat happy that he got hurt during the war against the newborns and glad that Edward proposed to Bella and that now, Jacob fully doesn't stand a chance. Wow, well let me put something up your annoying ass.

I fucking despise you. I don't care if you don't care, I don't care who you are - if you are a Jacob Black hater, then seriously, why are you reading the sequels? Jacob isn't going anywhere, you blunt person. Deal with it. Wait, that was wrong because you can't seem to deal with it! Two sequels, two books that included Jacob Black, and you just absolutely hate him so much. What is so bad about Jacob Black? Tell me. I've heard this much:

1- He's a werewolf, meaning he's Edward's enemy.
2- He's not a vampire.
3- He tried "stealing Bella away from Edward".
4- He's selfish, rude and obnoxious.
5- If he really "loved" Bella, he would let her go.
6- He has had billions of fights with Bella, and Edward never had one.
7- He lies and blackmails Bella to kiss him, or he forces one without her permission.
8- He calls Edward a bloodsucker or a leech.
9- He snitches on Bella to Charlie about the motorcycles.
10- He acts all innocent when around Charlie.
11- He says that he can protect her meanwhile she almost died while cliff-diving alone.
12- I see him as an ugly guy.
13- He's a mutt.
14- He can lose control anytime and kill Bella.
15- He's a "stupid pup".
16- He hates Edward.
17- He's annoying.
18- He gets in the way of Edward and Bella's perfect relationship.
19- He makes it seem that he's tortured just to get Bella's every bit of attention, and eventually, every drop of her affection.
20- He drives a Rabbit that he can't even fit in.
21- He broke Bella's hand using his face.
22- He's a jerk.
23- He isn't beautiful, sparkling or perfect.
24- Only a vampire could love you forever, and Jacob Black is no vampire, so he can't possibly love Bella forever.
25- He can go imprint on some other girl.
26- In the movie, Taylor Lautner is playing him, and he's one ugly little kid.
27- He's a childish, immature, whiny little brat.
28- He used Bella to hurt Edward. (The mind reading thing).
29- He likes Bella, and he doesn't deserve her.
30- He's too young.

Any other childish, immature, whiny, imperfect, ugly, bratty, stupid, selfish, rude and obnoxious reasons why you hate Jacob Black?
Well, well, well, I have a response to each of those reasons listed above.

1- Okay, he's a werewolf. It's what makes the story sell, and what makes it interesting. Werewolf vs. Vampire, mortal enemies. Stephenie is an author and she is trying to sell here, you know.
2- He's a werewolf. What are you going to do about it? What he is, is not a good or even legit reason to hate him. That's like hating Chris Crocker for being a homosexual. Or hating Will Smith because he is black. Right? Yeah, right.
3- First off, Bella came to him and led him on even though she was trying to establish a friendship. She still led him in the wrong direction. Secondly, he's not stealing her because never has she fully came to Jacob except for in New Moon when Edward was gone. Can't he get some credit for stitching Bella up?
4- Selfish, rude and obnoxious just because he wants the girl he likes? I think not because if he's selfish, then Edward is the exact same. They both said they were not going to fight fair.
5- He really loves Bella enough to not let her go and become an immortal and give her whole life away. Bella is the one letting him go, and he wants to hold on because he loves her that much.
6- Relationships aren't perfect, and I believe that Bella has gotten mad at Edward before. Just because Edward never says he gets mad at Bella, he probably has even if he says he gets angry at himself.
7- Well, he likes the damn girl.
8- They're mortal enemies. Edward calls Jacob a pup or a dog.
9- He was angry. You go to some extents when you're angry.
10- Charlie doesn't know anything about anything. And, doesn't Edward act innocent too?
11- It was her choice to go and randomly cliff-dive while Jacob was not around. Sadly, Jacob cannot read the future so he can't predict when Bella is going to just jump off a tall cliff, but he at least rescued her from drowning.
12- That's your imagination. Stephenie didn't describe him as ugly.
13- And Edward's a leech.
14- So can Edward.
15- And Edward's an overprotective bloodsucker.
16- And Edward hates Jacob.
17- And Edward's the cheesy kind of annoying.
18- A relationship isn't perfect. If Bella hadn't led him on like that, he wouldn't be interfering.
19- He is tortured. The way that Bella has treated him, it deserves some sympathy. On top of that, Bella tries to brush him off in the nice way which just hurts him more, and she's even marrying Edward.
20- He constructed it himself. Give the guy some credit. Just because he isn't filthy rich like the Cullens.
21- Correction: She broke her hand. Bella decided to punch him. Her fault.
22- And Edward's an overprotective jerk.
23- But Edward can't transform into a werewolf. There's always something you can't be. He's beautiful and perfect in his own ways. Only vampires sparkle, and that's one trait a werewolf cannot have.
24- He really loves Bella, so he can love her forever. Not as an immortal, but still as long as forever can be.
25- It's not something he can control.
26- Stephenie doesn't have much of a say on who gets cast, so blame the cast picker person. No fan or author can change this. Plus - that's Jacob pre-werewolf, keep that in mind.
27- And Edward's a way too serious, overly mature, whiny little vampire.
28- Edward has a right to see what he's done to Bella.
29- Can you control who you like? Not really. He deserves her just as much as Edward does because she loves him, and he helped her become better in New Moon.
30- And Edward's way, way too old.


No, I'm not anti-Edward, and as you can fully see, I am not anti-Jacob. But I am not pro-Jacob either. I'm neutral. I just really don't get why all of you have this strong hate towards Jacob. He did nothing wrong. There's no possible, legit and reasonable reason to hate him. All the reasons I've ever heard, listed above, I have an argument against. So for all you Jacob haters, until I get a smart, reasonable, good reason as to why you hate him, I still despise you all. It's worthless, pointless. He isn't going anywhere yet. And hopefully not ever.

 Yours truly,
Sugarloaf.

Hello dear Twilighters!

I'm feeling very proud, because I, Marielle aka Sugarloaf, has CONVERTED A GUY TO READ TWILIGHT.

And I did alot of swooning and hyperventilating! He's a best friend, so I go crazy about the book, telling him everything I love and everything I don't love ... etc. Telling him about Jacob and Edward and how they're awesome and vampires and werewolves and Emmett is awesome, so he knew alot about my obsession, hehe. I made him watch the teaser trailer, and he got interested. He told me one day, "Marielle, bring the book tomorrow, I want to read it." and I was frozen in shock for second. Then I got hyper and freaked out ahaha. After a day of reading, he started to search Twilight videos on YouTube, sending me links and asking me things and holy shit, he's pretty interested. God, I feel proud. A guy! Reading Twilight! That I know! Man, they're hard to find.

Yup, anywho ... I made icons but it's not posting so, maybe another day. LATERR!!!!

Oh yeahssss ...

PLEASE CALL ME SUGARLOAF.

Thanks dolls. If you don't get it, please visit www.twilightmomsforums.freeforums.org and go check out their Kellan Lutz interview! It's really cute, you should go read it.


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School is tomorrow, and I'm not at all ready. I have a math test the first day too (which is, tomorrow) and I bet you anything that I will not do well. Unless I have a sudden ephiphany, and I remember everything that our math teacher taught us before the Winter Break. But I know that it won't happen.

During the Winter Break, alot has happened. I've decided that I needed to change. This change that I am willing to make is a good change, though. At least, I think it is. It is a change that is going to make me or break me, but I'm willing to take that risk. I've decided on many things, and I'm proud of myself for learning to make these decisions knowing that I have many options, but these are the choices that are best for me. I'm proud of myself for growing and having the desire to break free from the shell that's been locking me up inside, and actually breaking it, step by step. I'm proud of myself for seeking the truth and accepting it. I'm proud of myself.

I've decided that I can't live my life for the wrong reasons or people anymore. I've decided that I have to stop pretending. Stop pretending to be something that I don't want to be, stop pretending that I am happy. I have to be honest with myself and my own feelings first, before I could truly reach out and be honest to somebody else. I've decided to grab a hold of the keepers. They are not who I call best friends, but instead, they are who I call family. Friends come and go, but family stays forever. I want people that stay forever. I'm willing to find those people, and I know I've already found some. I've decided that I have to make mistakes in order to grow and learn, and I've already accepted that. I just have to get used to it. I've decided that I must always forgive but I don't have to forget. I have to forgive myself for the wrong things I've done, and forgive others. But I cannot forgive unless aplogies are made. If it's my fault, I must ask for forgiveness, and once I've been given it, only then can I forgive myself. If it's somebody else's fault, they must seek my forgiveness, and I must always forgive. Even if apologies are made long after the problem. Forgiveness is important. I've decided to be kind to everyone, because everyone deserves to be treated with respect, even if you do not know them. I learned that the saying, "Treat others how you want to be treated." is true. I've decided not to lie purposely for bad reasons, because if I do, sooner or later, I will get myself caught up in a mess of lies that I cannot get of out. Truth holds everything, and we must accept that. I've decided to stop faking. To stop faking smiles, laughter, happiness ... myself. I have to live freely knowing that people can hate me or love me, but not even caring. The only person I truly need to prove myself to, is God. I have to accept myself first, so others can accept me. Life is not a bouquet of nice smelling, beautiful flowers. Instead, if is a bouquet of different flowers. Some wilted, some pretty, some nice smelling, some ugly. I have to be a flower in full bloom for me to experience life the way I want to, the way I need to, the way I should. And now, I've decided.